The title says it all.

I’ve been musing on my life as work consumes me despite something I enjoyed. Notice the past tense. I enjoy working in the technology field but recent events with work has put me into a musing perspective. Having just past a birthday helped too.

I noticed that I haven’t written much on my WIPs or other stories I have floating in my head. I have a couple of sequels I would like to do, some stuff I started years ago, and an #Evernote notebook of ideas. *grin* I have every intention of publishing something this year but things conspired against me early on. I’ve been reviewing more here and on RGR recently (for those that haven’t been following me long, Rainbow Gold Reviews Review Blog I helped start 2 years ago although I’ve been reviewing for longer than that).  More so on RGR. November of 2012 I started to write these crazy ideas inspired by many of the MM Romances and other mainstream and genre stories I’ve read over the too many years to count encouraged by many people including those at RGR. I want to write more but it seems like I’m stuck and the voices in my head are quiet. Not gone, just quiet. Waiting. It didn’t help that it was a volatile time then and in some ways it’s a little crazy now.

It’s great to see other authors take the plunge and write full time. Some have been doing it for awhile, some had to take a break for a bit to regroup, and some are just getting started. It’s encouraging to see this and it sparks ideas.

Well, you know what ideas and authors do…

What if I jump in the deep end an retire from my current career and start a new one?

Writing.

Well, damn. That’s a big musing. I’m actually on my 2nd career right now. Started in IT, got burned out in the help desk arena and went to legal technology. I enjoy it but I’m not growing anymore. Training in my field has been hard to come by. But being able to work from home is a trade off. I still can with writing, probably more so as I will have greater say over my time. However, I haven’t published anything so I have no idea if it will even support me.

I normally don’t put a lot out there on the web. I’m a private person. There are many reasons I write and review under a pen name. I just finished setting up a review/blog tour for RGR this evening and it got me to thinking. I’ve been thinking a lot recently. I don’t really want to retire from working yet. It makes good money and I like doing things with it. It does spark the idea that I might have a goal to work towards though. And that is something I haven’t really had for awhile.

The age old question of “What do you want to do when you grow up?”

I don’t wanna grow up… this Adulting thing is krap.

Sigh. I see thinking on this idea will take some time. I need to see if people like my work enough to buy it. Maybe then I can get enough data to see if I should leap into the abyss and take on writing full time. When it all boils down, I am a data-driven person.

Now to make the time to write. It will be hard but I think I can do it. These are just bumps in the road. They can be overcome. I have a story that I can probably get really close to finishing. Then to figure out to find an editor and self-publish or find a publisher for it. I waffle… a lot. I guess I will need to finish it and then figure it out. Trying to figure it out before it’s done didn’t do well. Live and learn.

And now that has been put to “paper,” I feel a little better. Sometimes, writing it down helps. I’m just letting people see it too. 🙂

Signing off for now. I have this technology thing I need to beat into submission. It’s called my desktop computer. The life and times of a technologist.

-Eloreen